The New Year: Counting Up Or Counting Down The Days?

Yesterday I was talking to my amazing daughter Laura, just kind of catching up on what has been happening and talking about life. She made a comment that really stuck me as significant in terms of how one looks at life.

We were saying that we could not believe that the end of the year was already here and that time seems to run faster as you get older.

In this casual conversation she mentioned “You know Dad when I was young I used to count up the days to something that I was looking forward to. Now as I get older I seem to be counting down the days, like it’s only x number of years until I’m 30, or I only have until next week to get this project done.” She said “ It seems like I am running out of time all the time”

I understand totally….

At first I said that my theory on why time seems to speed up is that when we are young we spend more time reflecting than we do as adults. I said I think that when we become “doers” and project, deadline oriented we are so focused on these tasks that keep coming that we become absorbed in the doing and the day goes by in what seems like a flash. I jokingly said “you know when we are kids we might spend 20 minutes eating a popsicle and really become absorbed in the overall experience of not only the taste but what room we are in, or what the sun looks like or what we are feeling and that these experiences become anchors of good memories and ones we look back on with admiration.

I would say that these experiences are when we are simply human “beings” and not human “doings”
Unfortunately as these becomes distant memories, in my experience before I become so very sick I thought that by accomplishing more tasks, projects and even goals that there would be a payoff someday that would make all these “doings” somehow worth it all.

I learned that when we are on our death bed, we do not wish we had spent more time in the office or that we had bought that second sports car or kissed that supermodel…

No, I can say that all I thought of was that I was alive at that moment, that I existed, and that was the essence of experiencing life as a “human being”. I remember waking up in 2008 with the knowledge that I could never eat food again and as some in the medical profession had said “your life has been cut short and with these conditions I should not expect too much”

Let the countdown of days begin…

mad-menSo later I thought that maybe we were seeing this all wrong and that somehow we had been duped in to this mindset of always being late for some deadline that once crossed, magically disappears and re appears just out of reach. That proverbial “carrot and stick” or really more accurately that exhausting hamster wheel of what we like to call “life”. As I was healed, the example of watching others scurry about made me again feel like I was way behind and that I would never catch up.

As to why, let’s not even get started on that as we would digress into a marathon of the Mad Men TV show analogies and how Madison avenue and societies message it that “your missing something and my buying or achieving just this one thing you will make me complete finally.

Run hamster run…..

No looking forward to the only thing that matters, which is looking into eternity, it stuck me that this is where our identity comes into play.

In Romans 8:16-19 we are told that “The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, heirs also, heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him so that we may also be glorified with Him. For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the anxious longing of the creation waits eagerly for the revealing of the sons of God.”

The amazing paradigm shift that is occurring in me has been that since my experience, when I died that night I died as an orphan, and what I experienced in those few moments was a revelation of my sonship as a “co-heir” with Christ!? And that I had inheritance to all of the fathers kingdom? I seemed to have awoke as a son, even though some around me tried to discourage this revelation.

So wait..this is either true or false so let’s break it down, please think of this: if my present sufferings occur here on this earth. By focusing just on that, the scary thought is that these are dark forces that wish for my destruction and that Satan is described in Ephesians 2:1-3 “according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience.” That this adversary is “the price of this world” and that I am captive to his devices and schemes as long as I run the show and direct my own life.

But wait…

When I accept Christ not only as savior but as Lord, that is where I come into complete inheritance of all that is contained in my fathers house. So let’s break it down further and just for a moment to stay in the natural world. What do we know about the known universe, and what part does this world play in the entirety of it?

Wikipedia says: The size of the Universe is unknown; it may be infinite. The region visible from Earth (the observable universe) is a sphere with a radius of about 46 billion light years, based on where the expansion of space has taken the most distant objects observed.

Ok, so when Paul talks about “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” Let begin to scale the world we live in to our limited understanding of the known universe. Keeping in mind that it is just a glimpse of what is within the fathers house, I have to laugh!!

Our world is nothing but a micro speck in the known universe. Logic would say we are nothing. However God clearly says through the revelation of his word from Genesis to Revelation that we actually are the only thing that matter to him and that it is just that he created us as free choice “beings” to have fellowship with him from now into eternity.

With this revelation I understand that I am counting up the days with childlike wonder until I can fold up my tent (die) and begin to discover what is actually contained in his house!

Hey, my Dad is really really big, really really smart and really really rich and I can’t with to be with him in person!

So in the past, I had heard that I was relegated to “suffering” here on earth and what turned out to be a depressing way of life, that I was to just “make it though this life” to find satisfaction in the next phase? I say this is untrue and a defeated way to live…

Jesus said for us to pray like this: (and please let me paraphrase) ” “Our Father who is in heaven, holy is your name, your kingdom come your will be done on earth as it is in heaven”
I say that when I was suddenly healed, that was my fathers will being done on earth as it is in heaven. When food was introduced into a body with less than 5 feet of digestive ability and the tests came back way above normal, that was my fathers will being done right here in this tiny planet in my insignificant life.

So insignificant, that he has made me a son of God and a co-heir with Christ where I am seated in heavenly places…right here and right now…

How cool is that?

I say that when you stand back and look at the impact upon humanity of selfless Christians feeding the poor, healing the sick, driving out the devils and bring those captive into freedom, that this is a picture of my Fathers will on earth as it is in heaven.

I know this, that there are no sick, no poor and none sad in my Fathers house, so it is up to me to decide how I choose to process what is happening around me. As my mind has been renewed things become simpler and clearer and I realize that if I am to try and wrest satisfaction from my human “doings” I am in for a disappointing ride as life over time winds down in terms of my physical body.

My final advice is do not let this world tell you who you are…it’s all false identity and designed to keep you from the true revelation of your inheritance..

I choose to move from “glory to glory” right here, where I am as I count up the days to the revelation of the beginning of my real life, as I take off the training wheels of this body and move to my inheritance of life in the spirit for all of eternity.

But until then, I think I am going to spend the next twenty minutes eating a popsicle, fellowshipping with his Holy Spirit, listening to Laura’s cover song “as long as you love me” and considering how truly beautiful an overcast day like today is here in California!

(Oh and Laura don’t kill me for using your Justin Bieber cover, love you doll!)

Audra Lynn: “Kingdom Come”